I should be happy for her... but what do I do instead? Cry my eyes out like a little bitch.
I didn't even get an official rejection letter yet but it seems like my slim chance of getting in actually turned into an impossibility. I hate life. I just wish all my rejection letters come on the same day so I don't take blow after blow...
I go get my delicious lychee bubble tea after school... and my reckless driving throws my precious drink from my lap to the floor on the passenger's side.. so cool. I stopped at a red light thinking I can just pick it up and OH MY GOD THE STRAW WENT THROUGH THE BOTTOM OF THE CONTAINER T-T-T-T-T-T AND I ONLY HAD ONE SIP FROM THE MOTHAFUCKIN DRINK BEFORE THE STRAW FREAKING SHANKED IT......... I feel like crying just thinking about it LOLL SHIT
I get home and open my backpack only to find my usb snapped in half... fuck you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MY ENTIRE LIFE WAS SAVED ON THAT PRECIOUS THUMB DRIVE
I hate my stomach and my thighs. I hate my face and my teeth. I hate how my clothes look on me. I hate my voice. I hate how I talk to people. I hate that everything gets to me and I care too much. I hate that I'm never smart enough. I just want to be everything that I'm not.